Friday, July 21, 2017

TGIF (A Diabetic Rant)

I had an eye appointment today to check out the blood vessels in my left eye, which my regular eye doc thought looked damaged and so sent me to a specialist.

If one more doctor tells me to 1.) lower my sugars 2.) lose some weight and 3.) exercise, I swear I going to rip his bloody throat out.  If I could cast a spell and give these assholes a week of Type I Diabetes, I would.

I. Swear. To. Gawd.

I could've schooled him, but what's the point.  He doesn't know that I've been struggling with insulin doses for a quarter of a century (including a pump for 3 years): the highs, the lows, the shakes, the sweats, the comas, the fear of fucking dying.  He doesn't know I had gastro surgery 10 years ago and lost 100 lbs. over 2 years.  That I had to go through almost of year of preparation and counseling in order to get the surgery. And yes, I've gained 40 of it back.  Why?  Hell if I know.  My stomach is still the 2 oz size it was when I lost the weight.  He sure as shit doesn't know that my husband and I have been working out at a gym for more than nine months and paid a trainer a tidy sum of money work our butts off.

So he glibly says this shit to me as he's exiting.  I roll my eyes.  Yeah, yeah.  You know, you seemed pretty decent during the exam but now you're just a goddamn moron.

I see Dr. Moron is 6 mos.  I think I will explain to him how his off the cuff comments set me off.  He's not my diabetes doc, he's a eye specialist.  He can keep his opinions on my health habits to himself, or at least ask me what my health habits are.

Oh, and did you know that STRESS plays a huge part in high blood sugars?  Indeed, when the body is stressed the liver sends more glucose to the blood stream so that the body can do that fight or flight thing.  More glucose in my blood is not what I need.  At all.

The End.

Have a lovely weekend.


  1. Great rant, Tara. Doctors often disappoint, and this one went overboard. Hope you are feeling better.

    1. thank you, Robin. I'm feeling somewhat better. It was just a sucky afternoon. Steve had dropped me off to do errands, and when I was done he got hopelessly lost and it took a bit of time to find me. I was melting in the high heat and feeling like the lowliest gal around. But I'm better. And my eye is a-okay.

  2. Crap, lost a comment. Anyway, hope he gave you advice about the actual reason for your visit. And, you don't need to wait 6 months to explain why his exiting comments were not just outside his area of expertise, but really hurtful given all you are managing in the genera area of health care he was commenting about.

    I really hate those side comments about "you should do this, you should do that." Thanks a lot, person who doesn't know.


    1. thank you, Kathy. I think I will email him. And, the eye stuff turns out to be extremely minimal, thank goodness. He says it's entirely reversible if I do 1., 2. & 3. Right-o, smarty pants!

  3. I am not sure what to say. I will try. He should know better. He said what docs say when they have little insight. know little, want to sound like they know, and are trying to earn a living. Tell him gently but in no uncertain terms, that you have been living with this for a long time, the fact that you are alive and well, and free of sequelae, means that you have been taking care of yourself with wonderful insight and understanding, for a very long time, which makes everything he said, an insult.

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